A half a year ago we had a screaming little volcano in the house: our daughter, who suffered while in Kindergarten and at home. Our daughter began to hit other children and provoke the teacher in all kinds of possible and impossible situations. Some suspension from school, visits from the school inspector and the Title I teacher in Kindergarten, and talks with the parents were to no avail. The harmless consequences had no effect on our daughter. However, the serious ones made more of an impression. She was excluded, and the children had specific permission to hit her (after all she was the one that started it). Mothers berated the child on her way home. Our daughter had extreme difficulty sleeping. She began to be afraid when we were not in the same room with her. Of course we had several daily arguments, because she refused any routine demands on her.
Now an attentive little one sits with us at the table. She tells us about Kindergarten, and looks forward enthusiastically to school. She wants to go to the Montessori-school, even though her girlfriends pester her to go with them to the Waldorf-School. Children frequent our house again, and our daughter plays peacefully and without our supervision with the neighbor kids once again. She paints, goes horseback riding, and is very proud that she now can go shopping by herself. A greenhouse is located in the garden for summer vegetables next to her pots with herbs.
Three months are between these two contrasting scenes -- a quarter of a year full of work, changes, learning, and luck. Elsbeth was the mental key to a new approach to our daughter and the world. Working with her has solved a lot and made new progress possible. I learned that KINDER des LICHTS need something completely different than what the repertoire of our current educational methods has to offer. What these children need is a spiritual and intellectual education – and also in the long run, the growth of we parents. To learn this is very fortunate and a big challenge. I am thankful that I’ve met people who support me in this.
Elsbeth has taught me first to recognize the loving connection to my daughter and to maintain it. A mother always loves her daughter, right? Yes. Still there are in everyday life a thousand little and subtle situations, in which this connection will be interrupted for short or longer time spans. An angry outburst or an inner withdrawal from exhaustion can pass by us unnoticed. It doesn’t escape KINDER des LICHTS, and the child reacts to it. Reaction, backlash, and the emotional spiral already begin until one starts to cry or slams a door. The fact that this doesn’t have to happen any longer is, a great intervention and a relief for us.
Through hindsight I have recognized that our daughter has many reasons not to feel safe about her place in this world. The light work, as taught by Elsbeth, about this theme is new and disconcerting for me, but at the same time liberating. She just began with it, and I’m looking forward to learning more about it.
The change to a Waldorf-Kindergarten was very important for the growth of our daughter and we parents. The change had a downside and many upsides. When we relocated our daughter from a regular Kindergarten, parents and teachers received the validation that THEY were causing some of the actual problems in the Kindergarten. A number of children and mothers in those classes still gave her a hard time, but the positive sides were much stronger and more numerous. We met a new Kindergarten teacher, who encouraged and supported our family in our adapted path whenever we became discouraged and anxious. She and Elsbeth needed to open our eyes at times so that we could notice the changes in our daughter. After all the negative and painful experiences, we were very strongly locked in fear, and trusted ourselves only slowly to see the positive steps that our daughter made. Thereafter, we had some wonderful experiences that gave her solid footing and reinforcement. She worked with Elsbeth on making Greeny her friend (that’s what she calls her shadow). At the same time the Kindergarten teacher tells in school the story of the Quarreling Devils, which became free in the dwarf land…
Our daughter blossomed after the three-week intensive program, which I worked through with Elsbeth. She passed the testing day in the Montessori School and was accepted without any problems. For we parents a big problem was solved because a regular school for our KINDER des LICHTS would have been unthinkable. Our daughter would have fallen to pieces for sure. More important than our relief was the face of our girl; it showed during this whole day only happiness, peace, and joyful inquisitiveness. We believed our life to be free of all the problems.
Whenever we believed all the problems were over…the breakdown would come. Our daughter again began to hit other kids in Kindergarten, totally disobeyed the Kindergarten teacher, and began to tell lies at home. I was discouraged; after hours and weeks of all this work nothing was of any use. Elsbeth and the Kindergarten teacher took the interruption calmly, but I couldn’t do that. On one of those disruptive days our reaction-counter-reaction-spiral again began to turn.
The work is not over yet. It just began for we parents. I now know what it means that KINDER des LICHTS will lead us into another consciousness. I don’t know at all where this road will lead me. However, I’m looking forward to it and to the people that I will meet in doing so.
Daniel, 13 years old, very intelligent, began one day to not go regularly to school anymore. He already spoke about his thoughts of suicide several times. He doesn’t feel included and couldn’t be inspired by anything. Shortly after his birthday he then began to refuse to go to school. This he arranged very cleverly: In the morning he walked to the bus as usual, announced to be sick at school, and rode with the next bus home again. By that time I was already at work.
One day as his teacher called me to inquire about my son’s state of health; I almost fell over.
We immediately agreed to a discussion with the teacher and the school-psychological services. All of that helped very little. Daniel continued to go to school only when it suited him.
I already read a lot about "Indigo" children and KINDER des LICHTS. I presumed that Daniel was one of those children.
My partner organized a benefit with the theme Children, and I became acquainted with Elsbeth. She was a present for me. The positive changes that I could experience and still can with the energy work that Elsbeth has chosen for me are unique and above all immediately effective. Daniel didn’t have to come even once to our meeting. After only three weeks I again had a son that had confidence to go to school, and who also wanted to go to school. For four weeks he hasn’t missed a single day.
In a discussion with Elsbeth it was clear to me, that without a mourning process and closure from my father -- I would always try to compensate and transfer for my hurts from this relationship. My father died 1-½ years ago. I felt relieve, rest, and peace and no sadness. I soon realized that I never mourned my loss of my father.
I began my mourning process with a letter to my deceased father. In this letter I communicated everything to him including what I missed from him and how I felt for him as a child. The mourning solved the emptiness. Subsequently, I could realize for the first time how much he also loved me. My heart began to cry for my father. For three days I shared all my in-sights with my father. I asked him for forgiveness and let my heartfelt love flow to him. I recognized that everything that I had missed so much from my father I have expected from my partners and sons.
Day FourMy son (22 years) called me and wanted to visit me. Since my separation 1-½ years ago he has only twice briefly visited me . Afterwards he told me that he loves me but that he now needs to be himself. I knew intuitively that he needed to bring himself to safety removed from my painful loss, and I accepted his decision. I had further contact with him, and we met occasionally. I felt he didn’t want to meet me halfway. Since the past 1-½ year he took the initiative to see me. As we separated he told me, "You know Mom, nobody can listen as good as you do. You became clear and strong in who you are. That does me well. Before it wasn’t easy for me to meet you."
Initial position: stood before 1-½ years (07/2001):
(It. Test from healing practitioner Birgitta Auer, Dipl.-Biologist)
At age 13, Dina was academically at a first grade level. A problem with perception, memory of knowledge, and recall of information was confirmed with her.
Unfortunately the SPZ (speech-and-hearing center) where Dina underwent several tests could not offer any assistance. After an unsuccessful physical therapy we decided to go a completely different way.
We started a search for alternatives with many possibilities
and beginnings. Last year (08/2002) we finally hit the mark with
Ms. Elsbeth Maurer.
Elsbeth looks at things from a different perspective. Her instruments work on and solve blockages that stress and hinder the child from the family (ancestry, tribe). Thereby the child and his/her family discover and utilize his/her abilities and strengths. This was necessary so that the exercises could even work.
In October we began first with the math training. Before the exercise, Dina could only count with difficulty. By the fourth day she could already answer 98% of the assignments. By the sixth day it was 100%.
After many years of cannot’s she must now get used to her new abilities.
Afterwards we have turned to reading. Dina’s facility here was very limited. Through the exercises she became more fluent in reading, and she began to understand the text. Previously she quickly got headaches and long words caused her difficulties.
Since she cannot apply her basic knowledge (reading, writing etc.), and her development was halted at a Kindergarten level, she had, of course, big problems in all school levels.
Nevertheless, she absorbed the information that she received throughout the years and now can remember it. She can use it increasingly. I notice this in her school results and also with play.
Of course Dina is not yet at the sixth grade level, but she has caught up four school years within a half a year. According to Ms. Maurer’s assessment, she will need at most another year in order to get to the normal level.
These changes were confirmed from different sources.
Ms. Auer, our health practitioner has determined the improvement.
The trumpet teacher told us that Dina had positive changes. She could now follow and concentrate during the entire class, and her performances have improved drastically.